My last post was about how I came across Tody and how it has helped me with doing the housework. There's nothing wrong with what I wrote but afterwards I felt like a significant part of the story was missing - and that's all the frustrations, false starts and difficult feelings that happened before I … Continue reading Housework: a postscript
Yesterday I got to the postdrome ( or hangover) phase of the migraine and it wasn't until late afternoon that another migraine started. This is really exciting for me. It's been well over a year since I experienced any kind of gap between one migraine and another. So even though I didn't have a completely … Continue reading A reason to celebrate!
My house isn't the worst. I won't make it onto reality TV with the state of my dishes. But the clutter and dust has been getting me down. I can see unfinished DIY jobs, dust collecting in corners and a general grubbiness creeping in. It's depressing because it reminds me of my lost physical ability. … Continue reading Using an app to take teeny-tiny steps toward a tidy house
I managed to get myself down to my allotment today for the first time in a while. But it was herculean effort to get out the door. I was talking to myself as if I was coaxing a reluctant child "just get your coat on" " see that wasn't so bad, now get your boots", … Continue reading Feeling stuck
The relief from lying down and feeling some of the tension and pain in my neck and shoulders subside.Getting my heap of cushions and pillows just right so my head and neck are completely supported.
I have been feeling the gravitational pull of my bed almost since I got out of it this morning. I'd find myself stopped still, staring into space. Or absentmindedly taking a seat in the middle of a short conversation, or propping up my head with my hand. I was still surprised to find myself waking … Continue reading Where did my afternoon go?
Recently I've progressed from feeling low into depression and one of the tell-take signs is a complete disregard for taking care of myself. I just don't care. And what does an act of self-sabotage look like? It's not going on a bender, avoiding an important deadline or staying up all hours. No - it's going … Continue reading Pitiful acts of rebellion
I experienced a setback during December that seems to be dragging on and on As a result I'm losing the will to keep persevering with rebuilding habits and routines again and again. It seems like I'm hit with a new obstacle or mini-setback before I've got close to where I was in Autumn. I feel … Continue reading Small victory#2: Made some food to freeze for later
I've decided to keep count of my small victories as the big ones are so few and far between. My first little win is eating a salad. It might not seem like much, but between my fussy, nauseated migraine brain and the general difficulty of organising my household chores my daytime meals have been mostly … Continue reading Small victory #1 Ate a salad
Forget there is a setback plan, try to get back to 'normal' as quickly as possible, then have half a bar of chocolate and a third of a bottle of wine because what's the point in trying to be good if you end up feeling horrible anyway? Still it's a new week, so I'm going … Continue reading How not to cope with a setback